My life is changing drastically..

For the last few months, life has been unpredictable. I can't think of the last time I knew exactly what I wanted. When I felt 100% sure of myself. I feel uneasy, uncertain and almost incompetent. Almost feeling angry at myself for not knowing exactly what the hell is going on. Not knowing who to blame or if anyone is to blame but me. For now and after all that has happened these past two years all I can say is Fatima be mindful, seek to find the answers from within. Don't rush into conclusions don't doubt yourself...easier said than done. Huh! My heart feels some sort of kind of way but my mind is scared the logical part of a human bring hinders our creative self. It listens to the creativity our society has desperately tried to don't in our brains. Well, I can't give up, I have sacrificed way too much. For the last two years, all I need is to hear I love you, and I am not given up. I cannot let my fears be bigger than my goals. I have come such a long way to allow this doubt to get bigger than me and in my way. It's okay to fail what's not ever ok, is to Not try. So, in the end, I guess it's a normal thing to feel a rush of fear especially after accomplishing a goal. What I need to realize is that I cannot and will not let that get the best of me. There is Nothing wrong with a pause Banksy says: "If you get tired learn to rest, not to quit." That is an important statement to consider...

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