My life is changing drastically..

For the last few months, life has been unpredictable. I can't think of the last time I knew exactly what I wanted. When I felt 100% sure of myself. I feel uneasy, uncertain and almost incompetent. Almost feeling angry at myself for not knowing exactly what the hell is going on. Not knowing who to blame or if anyone is to blame but me. For know and after all that had happened these past two years all I can say is Fatima be mindful, seek to find the answers from within. Don't rush into conclusions don't doubt yourself...easier said than done. Huh! My heart feels some sort of kind of way but my mind is scared the logical part of a human bring hinders our creative self. It listens to the creativity our society has desperately tried to don't in our brains. Well, I can't give up, I have sacrificed way too much. For the last two years all I need is to hear I love you, and I am not given up. I cannot let my fears be bigger than my goals. I have come such a long way to allow this doubt to get in my way. It's okay to fail what's not ever ok, is to Not try. Here I come! Watch me! 

Say every Woman that has had enough! 

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State of Mind

"Find yourself and when you do, never stop re-finding yourself!"Today, I was reminded of these wise words that our Professor Carlos G. Gómez spoke of, to many of his students on many different occasions.

Indeed, a blessing. People, places or things may remind you of many situations you may have encountered. With time, those things may become a distant memory, and you may even forget how they looked, smelled, sounded, tasted or even felt to the touch.  The way something, someplace or someone made you feel is something you will never forget.

But feelings are something that can take you back to that very special place, with no need of sight, smell, sound, taste or touch. The way something, someplace or someone made you feel is something you will never forget and will find it's way back.

"I am feeling real darn good right about now! Ironically, it only comes right after that state of mind, the beautiful moment of creation, when the only thing that drives you is what pulls you away from the petty things in life. It is in this state of mind where I want to find myself. Even if it means losing my mind because perhaps, it is in that state where no one understands me, where I am worthy of my life. If my work is to create chaos and may arouse questions, so be it. I shall let the chaos exist only in the beauty of my Art!"

-Fátima Lai